Connie

Dear Connie,

It's been such a long time, how are you? I saw your teacher scolding you for colouring the sky cyan the other day before I left. Are you feeling alright now?

I'm so sorry I've to leave for a period of time and you didn't have someone to talk to about your confusion on why you were scolded - for you really saw the sky in that beautiful hue vividly in your dream just a night ago. I would be sad if I were scolded for expressing something that I witnessed too. Yes, and you saw daddy in the sky smiling you too... and you did not have time to draw him in as you were made to stand.

You want to make the world that you have woken up into as beautiful as the one you saw in your dream - and make daddy proud. You have pictured yourself in the dream, twenty-seven years from now, all happy and beautiful.

You are scared that the image is going to be a just a fragment of your imagination as you do not have the ability to make it happen. You are afraid that you are not going to grow up into the lady that you keep dreaming about, for you don't see yourself growing up to be the lady in your dream when you look in the mirror. ... You feel very much alone with no one to help you since daddy is gone. I understand that.

When you wake up and you will find this letter placed next to your pillow. You will read this letter as you sit on your tiny bed, the morning sun will pour blessings and warmth on you through the window above you. I want you to close your eyes and count to ten.

Yes, do it now... One... two... three... four... five... six... seven... eight... nine... ten...

Feel the warmth and the glow pouring in... filling you with love...

I want you to remember this happiness that you are feeling right now. You are being one with the elements, being loved and looked after by the one that has left you this letter. I want you to remember this each time you feel sad or scared. You are not alone and you are always being protected.

Connie, the very moment you decided that you want to be that beautiful someone in your head - when you were four - things are already in the works to help you get there. And because you want to be someone as great as the one that you have dreamt of... The journey to get there will not be easy. The training that life will give you to get you there will be a tumultuous.

If I dare say, losing daddy is part of that challenges to help you get there. Life works in strange ways, doesn't it? To lose people or things that we love dearly is to teach us on the simple concept of learning to let go. Connie, you will be losing more people you think that you love, for freedom is to be able to let go when the time is right. To live the experience now, not hold on to it or fear that you lose it, is freedom in its own right. Losing daddy now is only one of the many loses that you will need to battle.

At times when things look so dark and scary... I want you stare at the darkness and challenge the darkness to see how much darker can it get, for no darkness last forever. And when you do not allow yourself to wallow in pain but come out of it better, then you are one step closer to your goals.

Your dreams will come true, Connie. You may stumble and fall sideways at times... but remember that when you cry in your sleep, you are never alone in your path to perfection.

I know that because I am you.

Always loving you,

Eswari