There were times when I asked myself if you are to be brought to this world through me and you are supposed to be the one that is going to make positive and powerful changes to our ailing world.
_________________
I ask myself constantly, 'What if you are the one that will bring hope of change that will subsequently restore joy, peace and abundance to the world? Am I preventing you from fulfilling what you are destined to do?'
Our world is in such dire straits now, love, and we are in a desperate need of a charismatic leader that can influence that radical change. Could it be you?
_________________________________________
We require a strong and steadfast leader - one that sees the harm that humans are causing to our world and has the courage to put the damaging ways of harming our earth to a stop to let her recuperate. This leader will not be controlled and will not be led by the nose by the rich and powerful companies - a small group of big giants that deplete the earth's resources to sell us goods to make more money. This leader will put a stop to all these giants' profiteering ideas and teach us to love our world more by using less and wasting less.
We owe our world that much and all we need to do is to let her take a breather and rejuvenate. Yes, strangely it is that simple, love. Sadly, our world is in ruins - the good lands left may soon be gone too if these big giants find valuable minerals in the soil and they start to dig.
_________________________________________
But you may ask, 'Aren't the rest of the humans aware of our world's plight then?'
We are filled with too much greed and indulgences to care that the resources are depleting fast. The world's resouces like the Amazon forests, food and clean water are depleting so fast that I don't know if there is enough for you and your friends anymore to survive on and live to a ripe old age. I can only imagine the worst - a world filled with thirst, hunger and chaos due to barren lands, dry lakes and empty seas. Mommy would not be around to shelter and protect you forever for my life span does not permit as such. By then, I do not know if you will even hate me for your generation's sufferings as it is my generation and the ones before mine that are the cause that left you and your friends with absolutely nothing to live on.
________________________________________
I used to imagine bringing you to see the marvellous animals that co-exist with us here. I know that you will love them for they are so pure, innocent and adorable. We can spot the koalas in the Tasmanian forests when we go trekking in Australia; or watch the fishes swim by amongst the reefs of dizzying array of colours when we scuba dive in Maldives. You have to be gentle and quiet as you observe them in their habitat though, for they startle easily.
I would love to bring you to see the other wonderful creations that live here with me; however, the numbers of these beautiful and amazing creatures have dwindled to a point that the number of humans outnumber them by several thousand times. Too many have been eaten, killed for their pelt or robbed of their home when we destroy their habitats. We do not have the decent respect for their rightful place on this earth and that we are supposed to share the world's limited resources together. Humans are eating and ravaging the earth like she solely belongs to them only. It is shameful and inconceivable for us to be so stupid - to make the world almost unlivable for our children in the future; for afterall, we claim that we are the thinking species and thus so, the most intelligent amongst the creatures that live here. Strange yes? We know the harm we are causing and yet we are so slow and reluctant to take the right and necessary steps to correct ourselves. All I can say is that humans have become to indulgent to care.
_________________________________________
Love, mommy is also part of the human species but I am trying my best to do things right. Please do not feel too ashamed of me. You have to have that faith in mommy. And I must also tell you that there are also good and heroric aunties and uncles out there that are fighting daily, trying to persuade the current leaders, the people and their friends to start loving and saving our world in a simple way - by just letting her breath.
Their voices are not taken seriously, I'm afraid.
_________________________________________
Love, please understand that it will be so unfair to you if mommy brought you here to live with me. Mommy grew up in a world that had fresh and crisp air; my garden was filled with bees and butterflies that hovered around the tiniest patches of flowers. Now...sightings of such insects are a rarity, in fact I must say, I don't see them in the garden anymore. And the air... mommy is suffocating in poor air quality most of the time and oddly, the only time that I feel that the quality of air that I breath is good is when I'm in an air-conditioned room where air is filtered. Imagine, the air that mommy has to breath is to be purified artificially for it to be fresher? You must be wondering, 'Why is the air so bad?' It is because there are too many moving machines on the roads now and these machines produce really bad gases. Also, factories and incinerators add to the volume of bad gases. Sigh. Mommy wants the best for you and that includes breathing the kind of air quality that I did when I was a child.
_________________________________________
Let mommy fill you in a little more on my childhood - I remember that I used to play hide-and-seek with all my friends amongst the trees in my school during lunch breaks - mommy won most of the time. Laugh.
But I'm sad to break the news to you that there are no more huge and majestic trees in schools anymore for you to play with your friends as we do not have space. Children now have less space to run freely. Remember mommy told you just now that we outnumber the animals in thousands of times? You get the idea why.
_________________________________________
The world is getting warmer, mommy can feel the increasing difference every year. Trust me, I do fear that I will be surrounded by a hot desert with no water in the near future. The heat will be so unbearable. You know, mommy used to wake up at six in the morning for school when I was a kid and I would shudder as the air outside was so chilly - I had to gulp a cup of hot milk to quell the shivering.
Now, mommy is perspiring at six in the morning as I am writing to you. I can only imagine how much warmer and unbearable it will be for you when you are much older. I'll blame myself for it for bringing you here to suffer as such. You don't know how much I worry about the state of this world in the next twenty years or more; it is a scary thought now when I postulate the scenes in my mind based on what I know of now.
_________________________________________
After much thought, I've decided not to bring you to life through me as I cannot bear the consequences of what you will have to endure while you are living here. Child, as much as mommy would like you to be here with me physically, I cannot bear to put you through the pains of living here like everyone of us. It is tough for me to see you struggling through the regiments of school; the constant need to excel in your examinations to get into a good class, then qualify for a good college; the need to find a good job to sustain your livelihood; the need to finance a home; start a family; worry about your children and your wife's welfare; and fulfilling your life's purpose - but these are necessary and tolerable for we all struggle through these challenges to make us stronger - and hopefully, we will leave this world knowing that we have done a darn good job in making this place a much better place than before we came into it. However, it is heartbreaking and unthinkable if mommy have to put you in a world that is has dirty air, filled with deserts with little drinking water and food - for it is an impending disaster that will inevitably happen with our current ways of life.
________________________________________
Maybe you are the one who is to bring the radical change to this world and I am denying you the chance to do so. Maybe mommy is too selfish or too cowardly to bring you to this world to face the challenges; but please, forgive me for such a paradox for mommy is only human.
Posts
No comments:
Post a Comment